But so many people are looking to me -- to be strong and to fight

but i'm just surviving.

i take back...

...every single time i wished she would pass because all of our lives would be better.


it's not and now i wish she were here.

it's not any easier...

...knowing she is better off.


gram passed away late this morning. that's really all i am ready to say at this point, other than i thought i would feel much more content knowing this is better than the way she was living. instead i just feel awfully, horridly broken.

i'm getting my groove back...

...it's just taking time.